and here comes another weekend.
hahah it felt like the longest week, really. had trouble identifying what happened when.
on a lighter note though, YVONNE'S HERE! i really dont know exactly how much i thank God that she's here. sorta like a balm for homesickness. cuz at least there's a homie here. and Evan's here too, so that's really nice! saturday tomorrow. wonder what we'll be doing..
well. this one week has taught me a few things: that really, im not as independant as i thought i was. psht. people who used to think i'm independant, myself included, probably didnt count in some external factors.
its quite a challenge to need to worry about all three meals in a day, to worry about laundry and clothes, to worry about what to wear for warm reasons instead of wearing just anything, to need to check what temperature it is outside before heading out, and needing to take a scarf and jacket everywhere
and just... everything.
its so different from home here. the home that i know and love, and have grown so accustomed to. i guess this really is part of the whole package of studying away from home. being ripped away from all one's support systems at home, and needing to redefine oneself. only now i realise the different aspects of my personality that i have derived from my surroundings and the people around me.
another challenge is to let go. (yes yes, i admit, i really do have issues letting go) being in touch from home makes it miserable to be here, yet knowing that you'll be back home in due time makes you want to be in touch. i guess one really has to draw the fine line between being in touch and not letting go. that is my lesson to learn i guess. God, please help me.
so... this week was still pretty eventless, cuz classes havnt started and all, but i've been out quite abit running random errands. spending time with a friend called cynthia, who's also from malaysia. its nice cuz we keep each other company and stuff. we play with her camera, we play with makeup, we go shopping and cooking together, thank God for people that He put in my life.
also met this other guy from Beijing, who's got a pretty cool name: Ono. hahah it all started with the borrowing of a pen. XD
my course has like 100 over people. went to get my timetable today and realised it's quite sparse. not much to do in a week, with Tuesday being my off day. hopefully there'll be more to do as days go though. i wanna enjoy myself here!
oh and another thing about my course is this: almost 80% of them are mainland chinese. in which means, they come from China. it's funny how i come to England to study, and end up learning more Mandarin. nyeahahahah. but really, never have i been more appreciative of my Chinese education. makes it heaps easier to make friends. since, yknow. they're all... Chinese. hahaha they're rather impressed with the way i can speak 3 different languages. its so cute. hahah
and im getting along quite well with my flatmates. they discovered accidentally that i sing. which is funny cuz everytime i bump into them in the kitchen they ask me to sing. which is awkward, but nice.
oooh i hope the music scene here is gonna be happening! really wanna experience new things here!
and i really hope that the church scene will be happening too! hopefully can find myself a mentor for the year. anticipation!
one of the things that has helped me settle down here is seeing God in almost everything i do, and everywhere i go. knowing that home is where the heart is, and that i've given my heart to him, then everywhere he is, i am home. so im gonna have Him here, my temporary home.
i promise you homies, i will be happy here. because i know that you guys love me together with God. and that keeps me going. <3 |